diffident:

There's no good reason why an employer should hire me, especially in my fields of interest. I can and will do a good job when I'm hired, I just don't know who will be the ones willing to take a risk on a washed-up bub guy like me and if it will be one of my top-choice jobs. I'm willing to take a job I don't necessarily want, but I was recently told it's okay to go for something I want. So, whoever you are or will be, future employers, I salute you.